DAMN TROLLS!!!
Hi fellow travellers,
I’ve been away for a while, been busy with life in general, and the trolls have been relatively quiet until NOW.
I’ve had a special hair piece made for me, and it really if i'm totally honest with myself, is gorgeous … it’s made me look and feel WONDERFUL.
I’m getting soo many compliments about how pretty it is and good it makes me look. But I find myself sitting here at my desk wanting to run away and hide. I’m a bit overwhelmed, and the damn trolls keep whispering… the shoes going to drop. Someone’s going to turn around and say you look stupid or tease you about the wig… and you know its soo obvious….
I suddenly just want to cry because, I feel so exposed and every time someone says something nice, I hear the “what do you really mean” in my head….
I know these are all my projections … and I also know it looks good…. It’s allowing myself to believe it, that i’m having problems with…
I deserve to be happy. I deserve to not have to hide away… I DESERVE THIS …
But why can’t I allow myself it?
DAMN TROLLS !!!!
